#2 Mummy’s dilemma of breastmilk for my preemie

I was encouraged greatly to provide my breastmilk for Mayyah since the day she was borned..

I tried very very hard….and since my milk was not flowing like the golden river it should be..I had to hand expressed my milk and that ladies and gentleman gotten drops of just 0.3ml of milk! Through a syringe! Breast feeding does not seem wonderful and colourful like what other mummies described…

Be prepared your milk doesnt have to flow like a river naturally…its not the same for all Mothers..different bodies have different alerts and some are just naturally low supply like me..

After a month plus of daily pumps and my 3-4 hourly aparts..my maximum pump is 40ml.in total.and sitting through for 1 hour…its tiring I have sore neck, aching back and sometimes super pumped boobs that ache after that…

Do not nag at me about milk boosters…as if you would know..I have tried mostly everything…

☆Goats milk + date

☆Al-kurma juice

☆Lactation cookies

☆Milo

☆veggies:young papaya, spinach & loads more

☆red date/longan drink

☆fenugreek supplement + domperidone

☆Mamom pills

☆mother’s milk plus

AND ALOT MOREEEE….nothing works my max pump remains at 40ml….sometimes if im lucky it goes to 60ml because I have not pumped more than 4 hours…

However I am not giving up..I shall trial and error to all the other milk boosters to try to increase my supply…Mothers you can try all my mentioned milk boosters…you will never know which will trigger but its worth a try…some mothers have it easier than others..Alhamdullilah..

But never admit defeat…Mother’s milk no matter how little it is, it is as golden good gold for the baby….even if you are formulating and doing a 50-50…it helps! 

Mayyah has grown tremendously well..Alhamdullilah..thanks to whatever breastmilk she could get…her weight increases daily..

This girl motivates a lazy person like me to wake up at 6 plus or 7am latest to pump…and even at midnite before I could properly sleep…love for a tiny being like you! See how you grab my finger…while I was changing you..sorry you have been wearing mittens and can’t hold mummies hand….

Advertisements

28 weeks & unexpected!! Part 2

So I was mentioning I was in the delivery suite for 1.5 days…the plan from the doctors at that moment of time was to prolong the birth/delivery as long as possible and maximum at 34th week..with me being warded of coz…However anytime that I felt contractions or in labour immediate delivery will be carry out and most times is csection and if time was on my side…natural birth…this is practised to all similae cases like me unless complications set in… 

Thus the administration of antibiotics per 4 hours via drip and tablets…this is to prevent infection and protect baby in womb since the waterbag has burst….

1.5 days of monitoring and no signs of contraction I was then moved to normal Ward, Ward 34 class C…

On Sunday I had all my friends and relatives came to visit me…with all kinds of food provided since I had no appetite to eat the hospital food…I welcome this with open hands! 

I had to do prick tests before every meal and my sugar was at 1 time highest with a hypercount at 12 max..causing them to inject me with insulin on my stomach for every meal till it drop to normal range of below 7.8 in my case…I was at that time a high risk diabetes but suspected due to the steroid jabs and not because of food intake…eventually I was off insulin and back to normal! phew!

Being in healthcare industry for a total of 4 years was benefiting at this moment because I understand at all times the medications given..the condition I was in and I was aware and kept track of my own medications and procedures to be done…At times I called the the nurses if they forgotten to do something and they were grateful I did so….of coz I could have acted blur la kan! But I did not want to risk the baby or myself if missed a step! 

See all the pillows yes I was ready to camp in the hospital for 6 weeks to reach that 34th week! 

However as Sunday 6 Nov was ending.. I was resting and watching Gegar Vaganza….fell asleep half way and was jolted up at 115am, 7 Nov…. to a stomach pain! Nak terberak intestines were tightening knots kinda pain…I had to relax for awhile..sempat to the toilet thinking yes I was having stomachaches…cleared my bowels even…walked back..and that pain came again…went toilet but nope thats not it! Whatsapp husband again…

Ok do not judge me…me and pain were never good friends…when I get pinched it is a dead blue black for me…so at that moment of pain which were not contractions btw because my stomach did not tighten..I have no idea what pain it was…but all I know I had the urge to push…the nurses came to check and said it wasnt contractions…eventually I couldnt take it and requested to be pushed to delivery suite immediately…which Akbar has called 5 minutes earlier to confirm this…

When I reached the delivery suite with surah Maryam blasting through my hp, my pillow..earpiece and whats not..miraculously Akbar was there and has reached…

I like to thank Rifaah and fiza for driving him over…I can’t imagine at what speed you drove but he reached just nicely in time!! 

After I was pushed to Ward 15 in Delivery suite…I went abit hysterical coz the pain was shooting me up a notch! And I didn’t had painkillers to cool it down…so laughing gas was the only painkiller I had….where I breathed in like a druggie! Akbar tried to stop me but of coz I pushed him away! OMG at that moment of time if I could kick him I would!!! 

Doctors came in to check! I was dilating at 4cm and yet it was not contractions…what I felt was eventually they called unbilical cord prolapse where it is coming out of the uterus 1st something that is rare and if baby was not out ASAP…I could have lost her that night…after that they mentioned CRASH csect…and it just got blurred right after..I knew I asked to salam Akbar coz I may not come out alive or my baby might not come out alive…after which they pushed me to OT…the whole hospital heard my Code Green announcement…

Doctors were trying to get me focused before GA was injected and less than that 5 minutes of chaos it was darkness that engulfed me…

There she is 245am 7 Nov 2016…7 Safar 1438..

Sumayyah was borned..Alhamdullilah….

It was an unexpected 28 weeks! A journey I truly did not think I would go through…

Before I got pregnant..I told Akbar that if it was ever a girl..I would name her Sumayyah based on the first female martyr of Islam…that name kept bugging me for ages even when I was carrying her… never knew this name would really meant for her…she is 1 fighter we are blessed with…

Sometimes what we planned for never happen or did not go through the same way we wanted it to be…All because He was the BEST planner for us….I never stop thanking him for whatever has happened these few days coz it has really been an eye opener masya allah….good things has happened so far and both of us have took it positively…

Some people would say kesian…bills are going to go skyrocketted but they wouldn’t know all the other great things that has happened these few days…Never ever stop believing in the Almighty even when your faith is tested in crucial times…

I only hope doas from all of you so that she will be discharged a healthy lil fighter…😍😍😍

Thank you to family and friends whom have wished us well and the never ending support…

So that’s my story…I hope husbands out there appreciate your wives more now…going through personally the birth of a miracle our amanah…make me salutes all Mothers…..

Assalamualaikum…..🤗