#3 Mayyah is back! 

As a mom whom has been away from her child for almost 2 months it was really hard…most things were delayed most of the times I do not even feel like I have a kid… 

Daily visits to the hospital make me kept pushing questions of when will she be discharged and what are the next plans…for a preemie Mayyah has really fought this battle well..she always miraculously pushed through the different stages…from 

1) cpap breathing to nasal canula respirator and then off respirator to breathe on your own

2) 1.2kg to daily consistent weight gain 

3) able to finally suckle a bottle slowly but surely

She was doing extremely good that the last phase was to suck/feed a bottle well. That was quite hard she could not initially coordinate the suck swallow breathe rythm..every 3 sucks causes her to breathe as if she was running a marathon! Her feeds could last 1/2 hour to just finish 25ml afterwhich the balance goes into the tube that leads directly into her tiny tummy …but as a mother I was really patient and stick to motivating her for her afternoon feeds whenever I was there…

The inlaws..my mom even Akbar was not patient in handling this and kept pushing for her to drink faster…I felt like telling them to just shut the f up seriously…you guys are not helping her to cope and do better but just adding stress to her..but I just continued to do whats best for Mayyah..

Finally on the Christmas week, I was given the option of home care basically Mayyah was allowed to be discharged! YEAAAAAY!!! however the feeding tube that goes into the nose remains intact for me to feed her via tube if she cant finish her bottle when she was discharged…

I was taught to remove the tube from her nose…and to insert a clean tube..I needed to give 3 demos back to the nurses and passed it before she can go back which was  scheduled for 3 Jan…

Most parents at this learning stage of tube insertion would become pitiful and end up being cengeng abit coz it looks so sad to insert tube in and out of your little one…most nurses says it could take a week minimum for brave confident parents up to 3 weeks for most of them coz the process really can be emotionally traumatising for some parents …

I requested to push for it coz I really wanted Mayyah to be back..it was quite scary I tell you! Putting a 32cm long tube into your little one nose to go into the tummy…whom of coz will struggle and start to whine or cry even…this is when as a parent, some would just stop and not want to proceed…

Anak kau nangis sape tak panic! Ngn buat procedure lak tu!!

But with a gungho attitude buat je…like some people say! JUST DO IT! thus with each demo the nurse said good job mummy! Suddenly I feel like changing profession lak..😅😅😅 the last demo on 3 Jan,the discharged date! the sister nurse was around but waiting for another parent to do a demo..she got another nurse to monitor me..she said I was so quick in the procedure that when she turn her head..the tube was in! And I was just pasting the skin tape on..(confident mau lebih!)

That is the best feeling Ever! that I passed with flying colours and finally!! My little one can wear home clothes….ready to go back! Going back at 36 weeks 6 days..2.5kg, after 58 days in the hospital was sucha relief…everyone whom took care of her said their farewells and for a good 5 minutes it was quite noisy in the Special Care nursery..mcm VIP baru lalu..this demok like celebrity like that! 

Gonna miss the nurses..they were so nice and friendly..loves coming over to Mayyah’s cot to see her and talk to her…and this girl would give her dreamy smile to them😍😍😍

My mom taught me always be nice to people…share and give stuff to appreciate and thank them…while I believe in sharing my rezeki no matter how small it is…when you do…you will never know what rezeki you will receive back…alhamdullilah Mayyah was loved by all during her stay in the nursery…while she has shown me that rezeki from HIM will never stop coming if you believe and is sincere…

Thank you my love for showing it to me…I hope to be a good mother to you eventhou I am quite a rough mummy..lols….💕💕

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28 weeks & unexpected!! Part 2

So I was mentioning I was in the delivery suite for 1.5 days…the plan from the doctors at that moment of time was to prolong the birth/delivery as long as possible and maximum at 34th week..with me being warded of coz…However anytime that I felt contractions or in labour immediate delivery will be carry out and most times is csection and if time was on my side…natural birth…this is practised to all similae cases like me unless complications set in… 

Thus the administration of antibiotics per 4 hours via drip and tablets…this is to prevent infection and protect baby in womb since the waterbag has burst….

1.5 days of monitoring and no signs of contraction I was then moved to normal Ward, Ward 34 class C…

On Sunday I had all my friends and relatives came to visit me…with all kinds of food provided since I had no appetite to eat the hospital food…I welcome this with open hands! 

I had to do prick tests before every meal and my sugar was at 1 time highest with a hypercount at 12 max..causing them to inject me with insulin on my stomach for every meal till it drop to normal range of below 7.8 in my case…I was at that time a high risk diabetes but suspected due to the steroid jabs and not because of food intake…eventually I was off insulin and back to normal! phew!

Being in healthcare industry for a total of 4 years was benefiting at this moment because I understand at all times the medications given..the condition I was in and I was aware and kept track of my own medications and procedures to be done…At times I called the the nurses if they forgotten to do something and they were grateful I did so….of coz I could have acted blur la kan! But I did not want to risk the baby or myself if missed a step! 

See all the pillows yes I was ready to camp in the hospital for 6 weeks to reach that 34th week! 

However as Sunday 6 Nov was ending.. I was resting and watching Gegar Vaganza….fell asleep half way and was jolted up at 115am, 7 Nov…. to a stomach pain! Nak terberak intestines were tightening knots kinda pain…I had to relax for awhile..sempat to the toilet thinking yes I was having stomachaches…cleared my bowels even…walked back..and that pain came again…went toilet but nope thats not it! Whatsapp husband again…

Ok do not judge me…me and pain were never good friends…when I get pinched it is a dead blue black for me…so at that moment of pain which were not contractions btw because my stomach did not tighten..I have no idea what pain it was…but all I know I had the urge to push…the nurses came to check and said it wasnt contractions…eventually I couldnt take it and requested to be pushed to delivery suite immediately…which Akbar has called 5 minutes earlier to confirm this…

When I reached the delivery suite with surah Maryam blasting through my hp, my pillow..earpiece and whats not..miraculously Akbar was there and has reached…

I like to thank Rifaah and fiza for driving him over…I can’t imagine at what speed you drove but he reached just nicely in time!! 

After I was pushed to Ward 15 in Delivery suite…I went abit hysterical coz the pain was shooting me up a notch! And I didn’t had painkillers to cool it down…so laughing gas was the only painkiller I had….where I breathed in like a druggie! Akbar tried to stop me but of coz I pushed him away! OMG at that moment of time if I could kick him I would!!! 

Doctors came in to check! I was dilating at 4cm and yet it was not contractions…what I felt was eventually they called unbilical cord prolapse where it is coming out of the uterus 1st something that is rare and if baby was not out ASAP…I could have lost her that night…after that they mentioned CRASH csect…and it just got blurred right after..I knew I asked to salam Akbar coz I may not come out alive or my baby might not come out alive…after which they pushed me to OT…the whole hospital heard my Code Green announcement…

Doctors were trying to get me focused before GA was injected and less than that 5 minutes of chaos it was darkness that engulfed me…

There she is 245am 7 Nov 2016…7 Safar 1438..

Sumayyah was borned..Alhamdullilah….

It was an unexpected 28 weeks! A journey I truly did not think I would go through…

Before I got pregnant..I told Akbar that if it was ever a girl..I would name her Sumayyah based on the first female martyr of Islam…that name kept bugging me for ages even when I was carrying her… never knew this name would really meant for her…she is 1 fighter we are blessed with…

Sometimes what we planned for never happen or did not go through the same way we wanted it to be…All because He was the BEST planner for us….I never stop thanking him for whatever has happened these few days coz it has really been an eye opener masya allah….good things has happened so far and both of us have took it positively…

Some people would say kesian…bills are going to go skyrocketted but they wouldn’t know all the other great things that has happened these few days…Never ever stop believing in the Almighty even when your faith is tested in crucial times…

I only hope doas from all of you so that she will be discharged a healthy lil fighter…😍😍😍

Thank you to family and friends whom have wished us well and the never ending support…

So that’s my story…I hope husbands out there appreciate your wives more now…going through personally the birth of a miracle our amanah…make me salutes all Mothers…..

Assalamualaikum…..🤗

28 weeks & unexpected! PART 1

Bismillahirahmannirahim…

It took me awhile for me to pen this down a journey that happened but unexpectedly! 

So I was mentioning the other day that my baby was weighing Alhamdullilah well at 1.1kg and everything was A-ok..

Well guess what the next day on 4 Nov! while I was at work after having lunch alone at my pantry..then walking back to my table! I just felt a gush of water leaked out and soaking my freaking  underwear !! I waddled to the toilet and o wells (CAUTION! TMI, MAY BE GROSS) I thought I terkencing (urinated) you know! BUT it was not..it was just water water water coming out from God’s knows where….it took me some seconds to realise! SHYT MY WATERBAG BROKE!!! I was wearing panty liner it got super soaked..my pants can literally squeezed and perah kluar air!

So as I was still bursting with water..and soaking my pants…I waddled back to the office…approached a colleague! Told her I needed to cancel our Afternoon meeting as I needed to rush to the Hospital..packed my stuff..whatsapp my Husband..whom got a shock of his life for a second…got into a CAB (every1 scolded me for taking a cab instead of calling an AMBULANCE)..and rushed to KK Hospital…

He had to call to confirm thou what was happening…but yes that was my minimal convo of a chaotic Friday! 

I was at 28 weeks when my Waterbag burst and I was a Thomson Medical patient but my decision at that time to proceed to KK Hospital was because I knew I was only 28 weeks and this could cause preterm labour…causing my baby to be in NICU which is expensive and KK hospital is the best in handling complications and cost saving! 

Yes I was going through all these in my head when it happened and to make a decision…I thank Allah for that.moment of strength and calmness… 

I was immediately pushed to Delivery suite and that’s where we got all the administration sorted out..I was monitored in Triage for like 30 minutes before pushed  to a Delivery ward for further monitoring and care….

Stayed for 1.5 days…I was given steroid jabs for baby’s lungs…antibiotic drips every 4 hours…blood tests and diabetes prick test…yup I was poke here and there for my entire stay in KK hospital…..

Part 1 of my 28 weeks journey! and its drama….

Don’t forget about yourself!! 

While most mothers are busy prepping items for their LO(lil one).. don’t forget we needta prep items for us mummies too!!

So here are some essential items I needta get for myself which Ive been reading up or tips from my friends:

1) Nursing bras

Well if you are trying immediately for BF. Definitely needed get those nursing bras that allows you to open the buttons at the front or unclip hooks.Easier management and quick to disengage to provide the boobies to the baby..

Can buy them at Q10 but if you feel uncomfortable coz no trying right, put this item in Wishlist for the next Babyfair!

2) Nipple pads

These goes along with nursing bras…again to be placed in ur bras to make sure you dont have round wet rings  on your shirt! BF leaks so you need these to absorb the milk and avoid those unsightly rings or wet boobs syndrome! I didnt know these existed till I keep reading…thanks to other mamas whom have shared such knowledge…plenty of brands again can be bought in Q10! coz its really cheaaap!!! my friend uses this Lansinoh brand which she said was good…she is giving me a pack of her leftovers…

3) Maternity pads + disposable underwears

So again if you are opting natural birth! needed in your bags. Depends on which hospital you are in… KKH charges these, they give you but chargeable items. TMC 2016 package gives a luggage of necessities to mummies complimentary so just bring more incase you use them up. Coz the blood post birth soaks up the pads really fast! The first week I was told is heaviest…also from my miscarriage experience this is true…Some mummies buy the maternity pads while other opt for the overnight menstrual extra long thick pads which Kotex and Whisper has them..

Maternity pads by Kotex is available in NTUC/Redmart…while Spring Mothercare carries some other brands I believed as well.

Disposable underwear you can get them the cotton versions in Watsons/Mustafa…according to sizes of coz since Im plus size Im getting the men versions…coz women generic sizes cant freaking fit my big bums! These are important!! coz if you are bleeding you wldnt wanna stain your undies and keep washing…so wear and throw jela these disposbale underwear!

So yup these are items you can pack along in your maternity bags! No need bring so many coz its just insya allah most probably 2 days if all is ok!

Dnt forget while prepping you need to remember this…You FIRST before baby…actually never forget yourself coz if you do…you tend to be more depressed and stressed out….

Don’t overbuy as well coz most items you will tend to get them as gifts…especially clothes!

I’ll share what Ive gotten so far… Im not a shopaholic my friends can vouch for that! So if you wanna get tips from a person who do not spend so much or on a budget…hopefully my way of shopping could help you guys!

My 3rd Trimester and its journey

Well well well!!I have reached my 3rd trimester soon in a few days time.. this is extremely exciting as all my morning sickness has disappeared and my appetitte is slowing kicking in with middle of the night hunger pangs..kebulur nak mampos at 2am and the sleepless nights!

My baby has been good to its mummy! I have lost 5kg in total from my pregnancy! and only gain less than 1kg! My baby S has absorbed the nutrients o so well! so that’s a good thing right!!

That is my healthy baby…can you see it has a nose bridge!!! mancung like the parents! lols…alhamdullilah giving me extreme pelvic pain and powerderful kicks..and good hiccups means that my Baby S is doing well! yes babies hiccups in the stomach…and it feels like light kicks but its constant they are hiccuping because they are learning to breathe and using their lungs! i believed this 1 will have good lung skills when its out!!!

So I wouldnt say I have sucha a wonderful pregnancy journey! but i wld say I am that few lucky ladies whom dont really change…

I still have my own face features…no bloated face no big nose…alhamdullilah no water retention on my feet…but u constantly look tired as baby is on a growing spurt chart following the growth trend. last check it was almost 700g at almost 6 months… so tomorrow is my checkup again let’s see the weight increase!

Edd in January! so the nervousness is kicking slowing just like the feeling if nak KAHWIN! betol ke ni skrg nak jadi MUMMY!!!