Strike off my Bucket List

Aside from wedding preps…I have been relatively busy meeting up with my friends to pass Bridesmaid baju…buat activities or just lepaking which is my almost every weekend duties… It is tiring but time does not wait for you…cherishing friendships or the people I love matters most..

Some of my friends call me nuts coz I literally have no time for myself..travelling for work…traveling to meet my friends..coordinating every single thing on my own for the wedding…and juggling date time with fiancee…its hard but I guess worth it

So last few month I did mention I joined Lyanaz Bridal Plus Size Model Search. I have a reason for this because! Firstly I am a strong believer that everyone is pretty just some are lazy or clueless in looking good.. so being fat or called fat my entire life despite me being a UK 10 when I was younger I did not know what was thin.. I was slashed at called names and my nickname was Mok. It hurts alot and pulled down my confidence level damn shittiest the lowest pit ever!

But then as I grow older i was like F*** that shyt…I look back at my old photos I was a lean healthy physique! Just chubby but lean!



That was probably at the age of 19-20 i was weighing my best! 2 pun kene panggil gemok!

So I realise because of humans that are full of crap and rubbish…I do not care whether I am 90kg now or back then I knew I was looking good!

And my bucketlist before marriage was to be a model for FUN for plus size models! To empower your mind body and soul!  I got into the FINALS for Lyanaz Bridal Plus Size Model Search! And i just realise no matter what I am feeling superbly good about myself no1 else matters..If people don’t respect you! You gotta be strong to respect yourself! Aint a care in the world with those kind of criticism! They don’t owe you a living….

I thank my Kak Ezan from Lyanaz Bridal for the awesome makeup!




I can’t wait for the final photos that will require votes! But I would not be disheartened if I lost because I knew all of us are winners!

Deco Recce-ing

I have been getting quotations from a few preferred vendors for Deco. From yang paling mahal to the middle range. Having this theme in mind, i really wanted it to be somehow executed tapi also thinking of the budget I was a bit tempted to go all out and request for customisation but then again, I could use the savings for other part of the wedding planning. So i have face to face meeting with two vendors yang ader slot available for my wedding date.

1) Wedding Meets Design
First time i saw them, I was quite pleased with their workmanship displayed and their designs. So i thought why not meet up to discuss further on their proposed costs and packages. The first time I met the vendor, Hakim. It was a nice chat and explaining what I wanted or envisioned it to be. It was cool and we got along well. So a final quotation was emailed to me a week after the meeting, where I requested for candy booth and cake, customised deco. But gut feeling wasn’t there, I was still dwelling on the decision nak go ahead ke tak.

Sambil 2, ader la jugak email-email deco lain, but quotations were not up to what I expect it to be.

It was a good proposal by WMD but sebab takde feel cam half-hearted la sangat. I feel cam they don’t get what I was trying to explain, connection was not as strong.

Sooooo…back to googling and looking at other vendors. I have been reading up alot on Comel Molek from other BTBs and also browsed through FB dorang. I was mesmerized by some of their deco and its simplicity but ader Oomph! Impact.

2) Comel Molek

Thus! I fb messaged them and met up with them yesterday. Corresponded with Abg Idil but meet up with Uncle Lan instead. First time meet orang memang la kekok kan..I went alone lagi coz I do not like having too many people with too many feedbacks causing confusion and too much inputs.

First thing he kenal kan diri die…ask my name and explain bout wedding preps.
3 Major Planning:
1) Catering
2) Bridal
3) Deco

And also being comfortable with who you are working with. My exact sentiments and I did mentioned this in my essential wedding planning post. Comfort and connection is key! If you tak click with your vendors mesti tak menjadi or unhappiness will happen.

He never pushed for his deco services. He gave me pointers to ask certain questions with vendors and what to avoid. It was a good connection and conversation. He asked me what kind of bride I think i would be…the pastels kind or the bold colours. I told him I was both…I love calm and suddenly a burst of colours.

I must say… by every minute of the conversation I fell in “love” with this deco company. Uncle Lan hits all the right questions, my concerns. The best part is! Die faham isi hatiku…my vision!! Molek sgt laaaa ader orang faham idea aku nie…


Soooo these are the two vendors available for my December 2015 wedding. Anggun Decor, Royal Boudoir, Kasai Sayang are all fully booked.

Belom decide lagy…I still have other decors yang baru masok the wedding scene, ISS weddings mentees; NAF Designs, Qyra Designs and a few more.

Let me sleep about it over the weekend before I decide….Any comments BTBs????

Bucket List

Sakit sakit perut….bloated and airy…keep farting and burping…haish…tummy y u like that!!!

And so…ashik malam je my fingers gatal nak type….creative genius whenever I start to daydream…sambil urut perut to decrease the discomfort…another finger types..Superb multitasking abis!!

Anyways in life I am pretty sure all of us have some dreams to fulfill and targets to achieve…if not you will just lead an empty life always unsatisfied….chasing something you are not even sure of…

I have a list of bucket list semenjak makin tua nie…Last time at the age of 18 to early 20s..all you know is party! Have fun..lepak…spend money and more party….

So since insya allah I will be moving on to the next phase in life…I wanna fulfill certain dreams or wants before i step in and take on my new role! I believe and suggest BTBs to also at least chase abit of their dreams…and live their life to the fullest as a single.. love yourself first before loving the word US…

Going through experiences and lookin at loads of situation many couples struggle when they have a midlife crisis situation and quoted that they never had enough time for themselves…never did things for themselves…suddenly decides to act single padahal da kahwin!! And many more….so when you self check yourself you observe whether are you even ready to move on in next phase of life?? or belum puas cakap orang…and needs more time…

Marriage is a commitment for two…and that includes many many other selfless qualities involved…

Soooo create a bucket list to aim it b4 u said Saya terima so and so…and sign off…coz as I always remind myself insya allah dia lah jodohku…keranamu Ya Allah aku mendirikan rumah tangga…dan sebenarnya dia adalah jodohku…kurniakan aku bertemu dia kembali di Jannah…

Here is a string of some of my bucketlist items before i said “Saya setuju”:
1) Get a car license
2) Travel on my own
3) Fall in love with my job
4) Degree holder
5) Lose weight
6) See snow
7) Qatam quran yet again
8) Proper muslimah
9) Visit exotic places
10) F1 watching
11) Scuba diving

Thats jus some of it and theres actually more…I have started travelling due to my current work…Alhamdullilah…but I would not want to stop reliving my dreams…if you cant finish it…make it an adventure or journey with your HTBs…thats when maybe you will always fall in love again and again…like le bf always remind us…its all about consistency…

But I urge BTBs to have a solo trip travelling near or far…coz when you are brave to do it once you will brave abit more when faced with a challenge insya allah….boosts abit of confidence and allows yourself to go on a forced break reflect diri sendiri…and breathe in a new life…